Break The Shade.

Blogspot No Longer

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sun, 18 Mar 2007 02:55:00 +0000

I will not be using blogspot any longer.

You can now reach me here: www.queerkidofcolor.wordpress.com

or you can now simply type in www.queerkidofcolor.com

I have many readers and I would really like it if you can all move with me.

I have been pondering this and I think wordpress is easier. I can create new pages and its all free.

So come on in and enjoy the read on my wordpress blog.

Black Gay Blogger Alert

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sat, 17 Mar 2007 14:10:00 +0000

Check him out.

http://www.spillthetea.blogspot.com/

Me, The confusion

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Thu, 15 Mar 2007 13:51:00 +0000

This is very informal, so...

Okay...so,

I'm back in New York City. Everyone clap.

Gosh, I love the city. Love it. Although it may not be the place I will reside forever, it will always be the number 1 love of my life. I have pains and joys with this city. If I never get in a relationship. That's ok. I'll always have New York City.

I'm here in NYC for spring break. I came two days early, why? Well, because I got suspended from school. Dont ask why.

While I'm here I'm helping my sister plan her Sweet 16. She's doing a TERRIBLE job at it. Horrible. Gosh, she's lucky to have a gay { or bisexual?} brother who is going to be planning this sweet 16 as though it was his own. So far her colors are pink and white. And I came up with the cute idea of everyone coming in pink or white or pink and white. She's having 8 boys and 8 girls for her court of honor. She's allowed to have a maximum of 400 people there. She deserves it. She deserves everything my mother gives her. That child is so unselfish and so giving and caring. Every penny she gets she gives it to my mom, every chance she gets to help out a person in need she's there, she isn't greedy, she shares. I cant even bitch about my mom throwing her this sweet 16. I expect my mom to go broke after this. She's paying my college tuition while still sending me weekly allowances for school. I guess its what she says, you will never know the love a mother has for her child until you have your own children. I plan on having 14 kids; Five from Jared, Five from Joey, two from Shawn QT, one from Marz, and one from Trent.

Random thought: Tell me how I went to TWO different braiding salons and both of them wanted to put extensions on my hair. Are you nuts?

So, while I'm here in NYC I plan to meet up with Sir Intellectual. Who is suppose to be some guy I like. Or I think I like. Or maybe I'm infatuated? I dont know. I'll forget it out before I leave.
I text messaged him last night and told him to call me if he felt like talking. I guess he didn't.

I called up The Christian [a guy I use to "hang out" with] yesterday and asked if we could meet before I leave on the 25th and his response was something to the tone of damn thats so close. He's "straight" now. I guess he's afraid of me.

I wonder what my first date with someone should be like?

At 22, Trey is HIV positive

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 00:04:00 +0000

This is his story.

Queer Kid of Color: When did you contract the virus?

Trey: October 14 2005 is when I found out, but I believe I was positive for half a year before that.

Queer Kid of Color:How old were you then?

Trey: Just turned 21.

Queer Kid of Color: Did you know you were HIV positive before getting tested?

Trey: No I didn’t.

Queer Kid of Color: Did you contract anyone else?

Trey: One ex.

Queer Kid of Color: What was your initial reaction to getting the news?

Trey: How do I tell my family when the doctor told me in my gut I already knew I was.

Queer Kid of Color: How did your family take it?

Trey: Mostly cried. Some still don’t know but they hound me am i ok, all the time type questions.

Queer Kid of Color: Does being HIV positive affect you dating and being in relationships?

Trey: Yes. No one wants me no matter how sexy I am, they rather date someone who they don’t know is than date someone they know is.

Queer Kid of Color: Why do you think people the rate among Black gay men is so high?

Trey: Cause so many get hurt and jump into the next relationship one after the next and so they do what’s needed to try and keep that person and with that being careless and just fuck.

Queer Kid of Color: Is that why you think you became positive?

Trey: No I became positive do to my ex, he was cheating and I saw the signs but I loved him and was blinded and allowed myself to get caught up.

Queer Kid of Color: Are you looking to be in a relationship? Do you find yourself desperate at times?

Trey: Yes I am and yes I do sometimes. It becomes depressing. Especially when u like the feeling of being loved.

Queer Kid of Color: Are you optimistic on finding love?

Trey: Not really, I’ve given up.

I saw Trey's profile on myspace and in it he revealed his HIV positive status, I thought that that was very brave.

Can you tell I'm pissed?

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 21:34:00 +0000

HIV/AIDS: Conspiracy & Scheme

It’s official. The world is decaying. It isn’t due to global warming, ignorance, belligerence, and uneducated Black men. No. It’s because we are failing to realize that there is a plot against us--the human race. And gay men of color are at the forefront of it all. Who would have known, a disease that one Homosexual white man caught would take the lives of 22 million with another 44 million victims to its conquest.

I don’t get it: why can’t people get it? Why are people still getting infected! Why?! Why can’t people exercise accountability? Get tested. Put the fucking condom on. Stay monogamous. I don’t care that you’re in love, and you trust your man not to fuck around with the next homo. Or that you’re usually in the heat of passion and you don’t have time to put on the rubber. I’m tried of seeing people that look like ME, talk like ME, walk like ME, are a part of the same agenda as ME becoming a part of an always increasing statistic.

The only method to preserving the human race, the only method to assure safety lies within the context of one world and that word is responsibility. And guess what? It’s free. You don’t have to walk to the nearest organization to pick it up, or ask your partner to wear it, it isn’t something you have to carry, and it’s not a material. You wake up with it, you eat with it, and you shower with it. Why not use it?

Liberals, Conservatives

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Thu, 08 Mar 2007 16:30:00 +0000

If you haven't yet posted your virgin story please do so.

Ok I have two questions:

Is God a conservative or a liberal?

Is Santa Claus a conservative or a liberal?

Think hard.

I'll reveal the answer tomorrow.

UPDATE: march 9: OK, so here are the answers from yesterday's questions. Captain, wrong answer. Although I didn't know you still read my blog.

The answer for number 1:

Is God a conservative or liberal? God is a conservative! Because if He were a liberal there wouldn't be the ten commandments there would be the ten suggestions. Because you know liberals love suggesting things and not going by the law. :cheese: **smiles**

Is Santa Claus a liberal or conservative? Santa Claus is a liberal. Because you know how liberals love giving things away. Hence, the two presidential elections to Bush.

What's YOUR story?

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Wed, 07 Mar 2007 13:32:00 +0000

Ok, people...Here's my SECOND attempt to get your virgin stories. Also, I'll be announcing the my blogger event people next monday. I still need two others though! So, if you want to participate and get interviewed and interviewing a blogger email me at queerkidofcolor@yahoo.com

Ok, um, I've asked people for their virgin stories before and no one's shared. But I've heard some by ear before:

A close friend of mines told me he lost it to a girl at camp...or was it a retreat? I dont quite remember.

Someone else told me that they've FORGOTTEN.

I REFUSE to have any of these become my story. Im losing my virginity to someone special.

So anyways I dare you to share your virginity story in my comment box.
And if you're a virgin, feel free to create a fantasy about the way you wish to lose it.

Marz dont throw shade.
Jared we're going to be kiking it this weekend on the phone.
Shawn DEFINITELY share yours.
Trent dont get smart with it.
And Omar stay intellecutal.

I cant call everyone out. But try to share.

::cheese::
**smiles**

Yes, I know.

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Tue, 06 Mar 2007 15:46:00 +0000

School, how nice? I’m failing one of my classes. Or so I think I’m failing one of my classes. Gosh, I can’t believe this. I think its part in fact because I’m dedicating so much time to work and my writing. I think that’s it. Not only that I’m working on a short film and I don’t feel like I’m getting any assistance and I go into production in two weeks! I’m really nervous. Last summer, I think I did a sloppy job at being organized, but this time even though I’m four and a half hours away from the city, I’m doing my best to rearrange things here.

I have this incredible idea for an HIV prevention campaign. I just don’t know how to start with getting organizations to see it and want to provide some funds to make it. I’m tired of seeing these ads with depressing faces of men with HIV and am tired of seeing the same ads with “wear a condom” it’s becoming in many ways annoying. I understand the urgency for getting tested, but please stop trying to insert fear into people’s minds.

I think I might have met another guy. We’re talking. I call him Sir Intellectual. I’ve talked about The Christian, a former crush of mines, but I wont talk about Sir Intellectual he too reads my blog, so I wont talk about him…not yet anyways.

I think this summer I’m going to look at my image more carefully. This summer I will spend $30 extra dollars on those DKNY jeans, and $15 extra dollars on that nice Ralph Lauren shirt. I will. Thanks Marz.

I miss working for Keith Boykin. I only worked as his assistant for a short period of time, but I learned so much for him.

I love Jasmyne Cannick. Gosh, I don’t even know that woman, yet I know I love her.

I’m interviewing Maurice Jamal regarding his upcoming film B Boy Blues. I’m excited.

One of my teachers told me that she enjoys reading my work because I’m so aggressive with what I say and don’t make light of the fact that I’m a culture critic. I get a long with her. She too is a conservative.

I’m getting annoyed with the way Jared’s parents are treating him. But one thing Jared needs to know that it’s ok that his parents don’t tolerate him. That’s fine. All he needs is acceptance. They’ve kept him home. Provide him with food. That’s all he needs. And he has a stable environment.

I get annoyed when bloggers don’t post at least three times a week. I’m going to start boycotting blogs that post only once every few weeks. That boycott goes into effect on Monday.

I'm upset that Trent didn't invite me to his birthday party. So what I'm all the way across the country?

Unleash your shade.

Recent Keyword Activity

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 21:55:00 +0000

I checked my statcounter and these are some of the searches people look for and end up on my website.

selling virginity
shawn dildo
marz is gay
the beautiful boys blog
feminine boys
are gays going to hell?
uncut penises
darryl stephens penis

unleash your shade.

What is love?

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Thu, 01 Mar 2007 19:59:00 +0000

I never been IN love, but I have been in infatuation. But I have yet to experience this feeling. I'm not in any rush to experience love either, but I want to know...

...what does love mean to you?

Unleash your shade.

Hating on the Queer Kid of Color

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Wed, 28 Feb 2007 00:51:00 +0000

First and foremost I want to let everyone in blogger land know this: I HAVE ENDLESS LOVE FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.

BUT

Someone decided to post a comment talking about I'm trying to outdo a certain blogger. He remained anonymous. It showed how he can talk but never back crap up with his identity. I dont understand how I'm trying to outdo anyone when I try and maintain my own identity.

No shade to the bloggers. But I am MYSELF and I will never go out my way to outdo you. And I never copy anything that anyother blogger does. So if someone thinks that my blogger special is imitating any other blogger's blog, please do let me know. Because apparently someone thinks my blog is trying to outdo someone else's and my blogger special is all too common.

Go ahead. Unleash your shade.

The Queer Kid of Color Blogger Special

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 18:45:00 +0000

The six day blogger event is back...and different! Check out my bootleg trailer!

6 Days

New Bloggers

The Event of the Season

It’s going to be wild!

“I think I maybe a little bisexual."

"As a matter of fact me and my man [blogger] had a 3 some with a girl. ”

“Just fu**ing a masculine guy is sexy. Even though I'm a fem."

“This is it. I was homeless for months.”

“I have cheated, yes.”

“I personally can’t stand the Queer Kid of color blog.”

Six all new conversations
6 days of Interviews, Debate, and Opinions

But this time...things are ALOT different

Bloggers will interview each other--

Fresh conversations. In depth commentary. It's all here on:

Queer Kid of Color

Coming Soon!!!

Casting Call: Welcome To Rainbow's End

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 00:55:00 +0000

I am looking to cast an African American male, who looks 17, to play a sex worker in my short film Welcome To Rainbow's End. There are no explicit scenes, so chill out! Food and travel will be covered. Send pics to queerkidofcolor@yahoo.com and I'll email you for an audition. This is for serious people only. Potential DVD distribution and lots of Best Short Film awards from Film Festivals lol...I had to laugh at that one. No seriously, email me.

Check this blog out also.

Check him out! http://joeybahamas.blogspot.com/

My First Blow Job

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Thu, 22 Feb 2007 14:16:00 +0000

Ok...I'm not decieving anyone here. It really did happen. It happened several weeks ago actually. On the fourth night of being in college. Some of you know that I am a very prudish person and conservative and reserved in my thoughts, so I kept it to myself.

This blog is inspired by Jared. I have no idea why, but seeing that he puts his sex life there I decided to put mines out there or lack thereof.

But, um...Here's the thing it really sucked! Well, I sucked. But I hate giving blow jobs. I'll never do it again. The guy said I was doing a great job. But was I really? I was falling asleep...literally! After about 5 minutes I asked, "why haven't you cummed" In which he replied, "It takes a while." I said, "It does? I thought it only took like 2 or 3 minutes."
He looked at me and laughed and which I retorted "Can you masturbate this is tiring."

Hmm the joys of blow jobs.

Im going to have an incredibly boring sex life.

Black Gay Blogger Alert

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 13:55:00 +0000

New Blogger, be nice to him...leave comments and say hello.

http://thejusticeofmh.blogspot.com/

The Captain's interview gets published in clik.

Yeah. You heard right. THIS interview I did with the captain got published.

AND

Check out an interview I did at http://herndondavis.com/diversitynewsblackgaymenpart2-youth.html

New Black Gay Blogger

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sun, 18 Feb 2007 01:49:00 +0000

Welcome him to the family!

http://dawandatruth.blogspot.com/

Abandoning my roots

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sat, 17 Feb 2007 22:51:00 +0000

Hey all!

I'm sorry I have been neglecting my readers. But I'm working on a very important project. I recieved a grant last summer to produce a short film on the lives of queer youth of color. The project is a three part short film. Which means it'll have two sequels. I been revising and rewriting the script for the past few weeks and production is slated to begin the third week of March. I began to film the project [original script] in August and production haulted after some issues, but now we're back on track. I have a whole new script in the works that can be added to the scenes already filmed. I'm excited about it. I also have a concept of mines being funded by Bleu TV which is a web based channel created by the Bleu magazine publisher. I can't give out too many details on that, but the people involved in that project are Party Promoter & Producer Nathan Seven Scott, Publisher Devon Christopher, Christopher Street producer Dwight O'Neal, artists Shorty Roc & Jesse O, and comedian Nkosi Brown. That's all I can say for now stay tuned for details! Also check out Uneq Magazine, which named me one of their Top Men of 2007.

In the mean time read this new blog.

New Blogger Alert

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Mon, 12 Feb 2007 22:16:00 +0000

Check him out!

http://leemcd56.blogspot.com/

Brooklyn Boy Lost

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Thu, 08 Feb 2007 13:34:00 +0000

It was a sigh of relief when I came out to my mother. Yet, I look back on that day in retrospect and always wonder if coming out was the right thing to do. In many ways, I feel like I disappointed my mom. She had dreams for me; she wanted me to get marry, have a wife and children. I could have easily have done it. You know, play a closeted husband and father. But who would I really be disappointing?

I’m lost in this world. Don’t know whether I should go back to being “straight” or head on with my life as a same gender loving 18 year old that is in many ways trying to make a change for his community. But I’m tired of being a disappointment. Yes, I’m in college. Yes, I started making my own money at 17. Yes, I never did drugs. Yes, I never got a girl pregnant. Yes, I was everything every mother wishes for. But I’m gay. That’s apart of my identity. I will always be “the gay son”, “the gay brother”, “the gay nephew”. And at this point I am tired of being those titles. I’m in a contemplation stage right now and I don’t know whether or not I should go back inside my closet.

7 things you dont know about Omar

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Mon, 05 Feb 2007 22:33:00 +0000

Omar tells it like it is!

I'm bisexual...yup i like girls too.

My toes are mad long...they look like fingers

I'm afraid of heights but I love the views from high places. It's kinda sick how I scare myself on balconies and such just so I can check out the scene.

I can't swim. I almost drowned at the beach once.

I can wiggle my ears.

My favorite food is lasagna... or pancakes.

I love word games:word searches, boggle, scrabble etc

Patrik Ian's reaction to Noah's Arc

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Sat, 03 Feb 2007 21:16:00 +0000

I asked Patrik about his reaction about season 3 and here's what he said...

I'm disappointed that we're not doing a season 3 rightnow, but the idea of doing a feature film version isvery exciting. I know a lot of the fans are skepticalabout Logo's intentions and motives, but I can assure you that this movie is real. We've already started working hard on the preparation- I'm writing a fabulous script and we're planning a summer production shoot. And if all goes according to plan, the Noah's Arc movie will hit theatres around this time next year! So stay up- think good thoughts as we strive to take NOAH'S ARC to new heights in a new medium. You guys have been incredibly loyal and supportive during these first two seasons, and I hope you'll all continue with us on this journey to a movie theatre near you!

Heterosexuality Under the influence

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Fri, 02 Feb 2007 16:19:00 +0000

Are gay people influenced by the church to become heterosexual?

It's not a trick question.

7 things you dont know about Larry Lyons

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Fri, 02 Feb 2007 16:03:00 +0000

Mr. Larry Lyons gives it to you.

7. His first grade teacher Mrs. Presch went to her grave believing he would be the next Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. His mother agrees.

6. He has a crush on the recently deceased newsman Ed Bradley.

5. He believes that life is a fable and that the Devil is a fiction invented to save people the trouble of dealing with the fact that they themselves create the energies that they encounter in the universe. At the end of the day, isn't it much easier to believe that there's some naughty beast dwelling in the belly of the earth that's making you do bad things?

4. He wants to start a mentoring program for queer youth of color.

3. He (only half-jokingly) made the following vow this weekend: "My sex will hereby serve as a reward for liberal and liberatory politics. Republicans are henceforth banned from the premises." In short, he refuses to bed anyone with fucked up politics, official party affiliation notwithstanding.

2. He does not celebrate New Year's or Valentine's Day.

1. When he talks about his work on "white supremacy", he's not talking about self-identified white sepratists and white nationalists (as in the KKK). Rather, the work focusses on the way that the Western world strategically privileges whiteness by rendering it the invisible -- positioning it as the default human identity rather than as a social construction. Importantly, white supremacy is seldom conspiratorial. Instead, it is embedded in the cultural logic and class structure of America in ways that allow it to perpetuate the dominion of rich white men without much interrogation.

Im coming back

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 21:18:00 +0000

Since being the Queer Kid of Color I have had the chance to interview lots of people--that was since August. This title has brought me a full page in The Advocate, two pages of whatever I want to write in Clik Magazine, three free trips, the opportunity to write for four magazines and I ask myself where the hell did that guy go?

Today, the Nat'l Black Justice Coalition emailed me asking if I would be interested in covering their event in March. I gladly accepted. It was this email that made me realize that I need to make a fierce ass come back. Not the personal queer kid of color comeback, but I need to go back to interviewing people, writing stories of importance. In short, go back to the way that landed me a chance in getting all this attention.

I'm coming back...soon.

I called her a cunt, so what?

noreply@blogger.com (Queer Kid Of Color) — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 00:10:00 +0000

I got in trouble for saying cunt...

Ok, so ever since I came to college my token word has been "cunt". To me, if you're a straight female or gay man who acts effeminate you're automatically a cunt. Sorry.

Some girl and I, who thinks I'm her friend, were joking in the hallway and she was playfully touching me flirtatiously. I said playfully, “stop it you cunt!” The hallway froze. I kid you not.
This was a scene out of a motion picture. Let me script it out for ya:

The students moved slower. You can hear the drop of a pen. My face begun to sweat. Everything was moving slow…except for a professor who looks like Freddy Krueger. She’s sagging. Anyways…she rushed passed all the students and said,

“You, what’s your name?”

“Queer Kid—I mean Steven.”

“I want to see you in my classroom now!”

I couldn’t hear the ‘now’ because her breath was kicking! You can see the yellow dripping toxic from her mouth…Okay, it wasn’t that bad. I can’t front though. She was very pretty. She reminded me of my former boss Jessica; long legged, Caucasian woman who had a flare for great shoes. Only Jessica’s breath smelled good and she always smelled like a fresh spray of Sarah Jessica Parker’s “Lovely” perfume.

Moving along…

Three minutes later…faces of disgust from students…and chuckles from a white girl who reeked of sexual frustration, I found myself inside of the teacher’s classroom.

“Did I hear you say the word cunt?”

Isn’t why I’m in here?

“No, I said blunt.”

She looked at me heavily.

“Okay, I said cunt.”

“I can have you removed.”

But she didn’t.

The End.