Every black gay blogger knows who he is. We've read his comments, we've argued with him through emails, we've made him so popular, his name is now a catch phrase. The Captain, who doesn't consider himself gay, but is trying hard not to be a homosexual, did an interview with me last Thursday. And FINALLY he answers up front WHAT HIS SEXUAL ORIENTATION REALLY IS--AND WHAT HE SAYS--REALLY WOULDN'T SURPRISE YOU.
P.S. Whatever The Captain believe in is cool--even though I disagree--he's still a cool person.
Enjoy.
Queer Kid: Ok I'm going to start off with the question everyone wants to know; are you gay?
Captain: Good question. I never confess I am gay.
Queer Kid: Are you:?
Captain: No.
Queer Kid: Are you bi?
Captain: No.
Queer Kid: Straight?
Captain: No.
Queer Kid: Asexual?
Captain: No.
Queer Kid: Then, what?
Captain: Neither one, I cannot make a definitive confession as I am dealing with sexuality and learning to stir away from vile affection for men.
Queer Kid: Why are you trying to stir away?
Captain: I am persuaded that homosexuality is wrong and improper within our humanity.
Queer Kid: How old are you?
Captain: I am 25
Queer Kid: So you're gay but you're trying to stir away?
Captain: I never confess I am gay. If I say that, then I am bound to the validity that I accept the notion of my attraction to men, which I do not accept.
Queer Kid: Ok I read on your blog that you're a vers/bottom. Please explain.
Captain: That was the sexual role I played when I was engaged in sexual activities with other men.
Queer Kid: When did you decide that being gay was a bad thing?
Captain: I always knew it was wrong, even from my Christian home where I grew up, it was taught this was a sin and immoral.
Queer Kid: Ok first off. You're not gay.
Captain: No
Queer Kid: You're a homosexual.
Captain: No
Queer Kid: There's a difference.
Captain: I cannot confess as I do not accept neither, despite the differences thereof.
Queer Kid: You're a homosexual. You're not apart of the lifestyle or the scene, yet that's your orientation.
Captain: Incorrect. I do not accept this as my orientation.
Queer Kid: Then what's your orientation
Captain: incomplete
Queer Kid: There's no such thing.
Captain: There is.
Queer Kid: Are you depressed?
Captain: No
Queer Kid: If you grew up knowing that homosexuality was a sin, then why did you still perform homosexual activities?
Captain: Good question. It's like the curious child wanting to touch the pan of baked cookies after his mother say to him not to touch the pan. My curiosity overtook my teachings as I wanted to experience what it was like to be involved with another man in a sexual manner. Unfortunately, I continued not knowing the spiritual detriment that came along with it.
Queer Kid: When was the last time you had sex:?
Captain: Nearly a year ago
Queer Kid: Do you think you're oppressing yourself:?
Captain: No, I do not feel that way. I do know that who I am is a work in progress to make correct to be acceptable to God.
Queer Kid: Now the truth of the matter is that the Bible says homosexuality is a sin.
Queer Kid: That's a reality--that's what it says.
Captain: Yes, I agree.
Queer Kid: But we have to understand the media and news misinterpret facts everyday. This book has been around for over 2,000 years.
Captain: I agree, but this book still has power and has been the guide for all humanity for over 2, 000 years as well.
Queer Kid: If you're not gay why do you read blogs by gay bloggers:?
Captain: Well, I read all types of blogs. Rather gay, straight, entertainment, personal, it is open and free to be read. I am fully diverse with the activities of the gay world and in order for me to help others who struggle in their orientation, I need to be aware of the things that are happening.
Queer Kid: Struggle in their orientation? That's bullshit. I don’t struggle.
Just because you're oppressing your sexuality doesn’t mean everyone feels it’s wrong.
Captain: No, many people struggle with the identity of their orientation and/or the change needed they wish to make.
Queer Kid: I think you crave attention. And the truth of the matter is you're getting it.
Captain: No, I crave no attention as I am an average person like the next man.
Queer Kid: Your blog is 85 percent on being gay and sinful.
Captain: Yes, I speak candidly and often about this subject.
Queer Kid: Often also known as all the time. Why do you call yourself "The Captain"?
Captain: Good Question. I am called the Captain because of my role in an organization I use to be apart of long ago.
Queer Kid: Okay, why do you still call yourself The Captain:?
Captain: Some people in the past that still know me refer to me as such and I guess it is do with the out spoken knowledge and wisdom I share with others.
Queer Kid: I think you share what you think is knowledge and wisdom. What sort of things have you done to "cure" your homosexuality?
Captain: There is nothing for "me" to do. This is in the hands of God.
Queer Kid: What if you're wrong? What if homosexuality isn’t a sin? If God didn't want you to be gay, don't you think you'll be straight?
Captain: I certainly understand your thought. What proof can you provide that say it is not a sin?
Queer Kid: 2,000 years of crusades, war, and ignorant proof.
Captain: However, can you deny the reports of people who successfully changed their orientation and are happily attached with the opposite sex? We have an organization, such as Exodus International, that document such reports of people who seek God and dealt with the immorality they were in. I will even further say homosexuality is a spirit that enters our soulish realm that influence and entice the wonders and pleasures of our flesh.
This by no means has nothing to do with past wars and debates within the church or the bible.
Queer Kid: Why don't you get an exorcism?
Captain: Exorcisms are for those who recognize demons exist, but don't fully understand demonic operations or how to confront them.
Queer Kid: That's soulish, isn't it:?
Captain: Clarify.
Queer Kid: You said that its a spirit that enters our soul. Isn't that what a demon is:?
Captain: Well, demons enter many ways to our lives. I posted a four part article series by Apostle John Eckhardt of Chicago, a Pastor who have been dealing with study of demons and how it affects us as humans and us as Christians.
Queer Kid: Are you happy?
Captain: Yes, I am happy
Queer Kid: What do you do for a living besides bash gay people?
Captain: I bash no gay person, for I was too a gay male. I am an Executive Consultant
Queer Kid: Do you have gay friends?
Captain: Yes, I do
Queer Kid: I have to ask this question; who are some of your favorite gay bloggers and least favorite?
Captain: I read Keith Boykin, Darian, Cash S, Mr. Franklin, Fuzzy, Shawnqt, Clay Cane, Trent Jackson, E, That Dude, Phillybred, Chicagoblknazn, and a host of others. I don't think I have a least favorite, maybe those who do not regularly update as often as these bloggers.
Yes, of course, yours and Marz. I can't think of everyone.
Queer Kid: Be honest with me now, did you like being gay?
Captain: Honestly, No
Queer Kid: You didn't like the sex?
Captain: Yes, because it is pleasing to the flesh, but death to my spirit and soul.
Queer Kid: What's your religion:?
Captain: Christian
Queer Kid: That's not a religion.
Captain: Then I have no religion
Queer Kid: So let me get this straight; you're a Christian yet you think homosexuality is wrong because its in the Bible? That's contradicting.
Captain: How so?
Queer Kid: Because people who follow religion use Bible. You don’t follow religion.
You're so basing what you think on homosexuality on nothing.
Captain: Well, let me grasp your definition of religion. Tell me.
Queer Kid: Go define religion and Christianity. Religion can mean being Catholic, Hindu, Pentecostal, Baptist etc., Where they follow a set and rules and standards.
Queer Kid: Christians however do not.
Captain: Interesting. I see where the division of thought is coming from.
Queer Kid: Do you believe in Jesus:?
Captain: Yes, I do
Queer Kid: So I'll ask again. Since you're not in a religion. What do you based your Christianity on?
Captain: Well, you will need to modify your question because it is invalid. Christianity, in the holistic state, is considered a religion; amongst the top five religions in the world, which are Judaism, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, and Buddhism. My faith is in Jesus Christ.
Queer Kid: You are being redundant now. Have you learned anything from this interview?
Captain: Nothing for me to learn.
Monday, December 04, 2006
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9 comments:
WoW...it's like beating your head against a brick wall, huh?
I have read the Captain's comments before on this and other blogs, and this just makes me feel sad for his wasted years.
you should check out the post i made earlier this year about him, even though he deserves to be ignored. he is a sad man who will remain lonely. a tragic casualty of the faux christian regime in america.
Another one who thinks that God will accept him more if he renounces his sexuality.
Whatever, it's his life, just so as long as his ignorance doesn't affect others.
Something I'll have to reread once I loose the pounding headache.
I don't think I have enough oxygen in my body to sigh the way I want to...Good Grief!
lol @ omar ramon
I believe that ones sexual preferance can be changed if one 100% wants to be changed. I also believe that while the captain has the right to voice his opinion, just because his opinion doesn't match others doesn't give anyone the bash him. he is a person trying to find his way just like everyone else. I dont believe that the questions that were asked. I would love the chance to have an interview with the captin. I think I can realate to him.
i would love to meet the Captain - experience tells me these 'types' make for the best sex.
Has it not occured to anyone that this is a very complex sexual fantasy related to masochism ?
i don't think he's lonely ,suffering,sad or any other negative platitude - He's having a great time with all the others like him - i visit such types from time to time,i find the guilt beguiling in this day and age.
This is the first time seeing this person's views and I don't agree with him but he was right about one thing. Your questions relating to religion were invalid and not phrased well. Religion refers more to the distinction between deities (Christianity vs. Muslim etc.) which you were confusing with 'denomination' (Baptist vs. Pentecostal etc.). There are different denominations which belong to the Christian religion and I think what you wanted to ask was which denomination he subscribes to. Considering himself a Christian who doesn't identify with a particular denomination doesn't invalidate his claim to base his beliefs on the bible.
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